date: Friday, December 17, 2004 @ 10:45 pm
title: Day 27: My Vessel is Expanding... I'm Struggling with Myself.
Just wanted to talk to somebody is so difficult, especially on Friday night and also on the day when the results for students going to be posted for the first three months had been released. Eveyone is just not at home, mostly.
The first call I made to was to Joshua… primary concern was to find out about his results, except that I knew he was sent to CJC, other information was unknown. Spoke to him, den asked him whether he was free on the day after Christmas… I’m baptizing on that faithful day. Well.. He said alright den the conversation ended with him excusing himself to get a hot bath and retire for the night.
Next, I called Suhartono ( did I spell correctly again?). Asked him the same old question. However, a though came to me. I remembered that he was interested in the Jesus and God thingy, den invited him for this Sunday’s service.. Amen? Den the line went off, apologizing that he had to go bathe as well…
Girlsss, I thought of. Flipped opened my handphone. Browsed. Searched and Called. Either it was the everlasting buzzing echoing in my ear or that the only remaining human being at the house picked up the phone, usually all were, “ sorry, not in. Thank you. Bye.”
Why looking for someone to talk to seem to be impossible. Impossible to the extent that none was free to entertain me.. maybe it wasn’t the right time to call anyone. Browsing thru the MSM, can’t sign in. (of cos lar.. didn’t dial up my modem… dumb)
Today, I’m not in the mood to blog now. Cos I;m blogging another account. Many ‘Rhema’ flooding in me that I need to write down on the other personal blog. For eyes only. So no seasonal long essay or thesis today.
One more thing.. I’m struggling within myself after seeing many things happening concurrently at the leart of the city. I’m now heartbroken. Holy anger just engulfed me until I’m spiritual blinded. Need sometime to seek God for revelations and his ‘Rhema’.
Currently, attending School of Leader in church, like school.
Pile of homework and many run errands need to be fulfilled. So will be blogging the gist of my concerns for now.
